Saturday, August 26, 2006
26 august 2006:
kaes...as usual today is saturday...but blogging abt yesterday...
yesterday..woke up and went school... got the athenium day thingy...alot of pp tot i was in it... but nope... i jus went for the rehersal...yup..
den got class... den went art lesson... at art class... the students are starting to bond la.. we started helping each other dom things... give each other comments... help each other... its nice... den i repainted my ugly mask... pp tot tat my mask is supposed to be gory...but it isn't... den yu tong saw through my mask...i think his the 2nd person except me to understand the true meaning of my mask..
den after tat was normal lessons...i wasn't paying attention la... because i was composing songs... cause when ever i sing i would sing songs tat made sense to my life... but... it wasn't really 100 percent true so i composed songs tat really make sense to my life.. created two ORIGINAL songs so far... one more in the process le...
after school went shawn's house... carson and me played hide and seek in the harmony park... childish but fun... i had some memories in the park too.. remembered sitting on the seats and saw a cute black dog in the past... den went carson's house played the x box... and den went home with shawn... was talking abt who stead with who and so on...
den went home and went LAN to play CS... but in the end played DOTA...first time playing it... so took 1 hour to understand wad the game was about...
den went home...
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
22nd august 2006:
my day starts...at my bed..im very tired... look at my fone under the pillow... no messages... hmmm.. fine.. not a good start...
went school for chinese lesson... class got separated into clever students and stupid students... im in the stupid students class la...den had a test... i dun tink will pass it.. cannot take my mind of it...
den ss lesson i was daydreaming... didn't do anything... den maths lesson got test... english lesson was framed by carson... history lesson slack but rush through at the last minute...
den i lost my pen... which was like the 5th time this month.. was fed up...
den went chinese oral after school... i didn't noe ALOT of words lor...
den "send" yi heen" to the interchange and saw hui ge on the way... he was shorter than me and yi heen...
den went home... slept..woke up and ate dinner..
QUESTION FOR THE DAY...
izzit easier t say sorry or izzit easier to forgive???...reporter christopher chee have been finding out the answer...
"hmmmm...its easier to say sorry...because even if u say sorry the person oso may not forgive u ma..."
by bryan chua..3 charity...
"er... its difficult to say sorry.. its like..sor..sor..sorry..(tounge tied)"
by sean lim yk..3 diigence..
wad about u???... wad do u think???..
hmmmmm...sometimes i felt my heart isn't there... its like empty.. i can't feel it... its like its dead... yup... dead and reborned...den...dead again...it jus keep on dying....u may felt tat i have changed.. nope... i had not changed...im dead.. a living zombie...
but.. i WANT to be reborned again...
GIVE ME LIFE...
Saturday, August 19, 2006
wrote this on saturday morning... but blogging about yesterday...
yesterday woke up from the wrong side of the bed... good morning and good night... had u have a chance to say this to ur loved ones everday???...heh...wil;l they find it irritating hearing these words everyday??...heh..
den went school... and had mass run... ran 3 rounds den can go in school le... den went class... maths lesson cherly told me jkes tat are very funny and i took my mind off my problems...den went home... den went school... den took the keys and opened the humanities room...and arranged the tables..den drama was kinda fun...funny...funnier...dotz...
den went home...and went tuition..went home after tuition...
i kinda hate pp acting happy... i wanted those acting happy to cry... i told this to yi heen... and yi heen said..."u oso acting happy ma..."...yup...im one of them...i hate myself...
mum said recently that im getting more rebelious recently... i oso dun wanna do it... but... onli if mum understands me.. but... NO ONE understands me... how can anyone understand me...when i dun understand myself???...
Saturday, August 12, 2006
dunno wad to put as the title...physics test out... i was worse den edwin...
was blogging on saturday afternoon... woke up... stayed at home... nothing much... so blogging abt yesterday...
yesterday... went school.. hmmm.. normal lessons.. den after school went drama... got i part i was acting as a pai kia... and pp say i was really real...its because... i was releasing my anger on them.. sorry...den went home...
went out for tuition... den went blk 463...16th story..was looking for somethings left in the past... but nope... all gone... look at the scenery from there... the scenery looks espically nice from here... its the first time i found it so nice...den i tot of jumping down... sixteen story leh... confirm die de... but nope... i dd not jump...
went take 72... chat with rachel and went macdonalds for dinner... and got cheated $1.50... den went tuition... wasn't paying attention and was drawing... the teacher... den another tuition fren draw panda... den he was comforting himself tat its nice... but it was nice la... lols...
den walked home with my 3 monfort tuitin frens... from hougang sec... den went different ways halfway... and went home...
tats it...
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
hey...
im losing my interest in my studies... wad is the use of studying if im dumb???...
my chinese..6/30..maths...1/26... den after the physics test yi heen told edwin...'do u even cared about ur future???'... ia sked him why he asked edwin tat... he said"he was sleeping during the test la..."...yi heen ars... during the physics test... i slept longer den edwin... den history lesson...mr er asked us to do assignment... but i sian la... dun wanna do...spent the entire hour doing nothing... den mr er ask me to meet him at 1:30... but i dun care la... never go meet him... aren't i a bastard???...
had been sleeping more often lately... its not because im tired... im sick of life... i dowan to face reality... i wanna sleep... jus sleep... if onli i can sleep forever...
i noe commiting sucide is not the way out... im not stupid.. i noe how precious life is... i wun commit sucide... onli if... one day i go SNAP... and go mad... maybe i have depression den i will commit sucide... so if i died... im jus mad... but... my blog will live forever... my stories will be here forever... i dowan to be forgotten... HAIZ...
today woke up... went school... ermmm... den chinese period had to change place with cheryl... so put my pencil box on her bag... den edwin disturbed me... den kelvin ask us not to sit on chelyl's chair... den serene said 'christopher... dun put ur pencil box on cheryl's bag...'... i was like huh???... den kelvin said..."cheryl will be angry... do u understand???..."...I DUN UNDERSTAND... jus put on her bag onli ma!!!... my pencil box oso not dirty... but wad made me angry is... i cannot touch her bag... while cherl can dirty my bag... she threw it at the floor... dotz...
after tat walk with xuan yi... he took all my mac points tat i had been saving... left with onli 9 points... haiz...
