Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Chapter Seventy Four
Hi.. The date is 29th October..
The average feeling for the day is average... The day started out fine.. but as it goes on.. some stuffs occured to neutralize the FUN for the day..
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Woah.. Its the seventy fourth chapter...
The chapters started when i was emo about love stuff.. Decided not to blog about emo love stuffs on my blog since long ago.. But i decided to break this vow.. Just for once.. I talk more about it later..
And actually.. I wanted to study.. But an incident made me wanna blog.. So i went online.. haiz.. And.. Im downloading maple now.. lols!..
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Today reached school quite early.. Saw afrifah walking alone at the bus stop... Asked her where Hui Jie is cause almost everyday they come school together..
She told me Hui Jie will reached school later than usual.. lols..
So.. We took the same bus.. Never really talk much.. Talked about our promotional status...
Den I made my way to the OG area at the stadium..
For the past few weeks.. I had been going to the OG area every morning.. for some reasons..
But when Im there.. I seldom talk..
I just wanted to be there.......
So.. I just sit there and hear them talk lor..
AND YA.. im always listening.. Im just pretending not to listen.. will elaborate further later..
Class starts... For GP.. watch movie.. For chinese.. watch movie..
EVERYDAY... watch movie.. damn sian.. Im just going school because Im on "probation"..
School ends at 12.05..
Ate school in lunch.. Opps..... Ate lunch in school and after that went CSC for bowling with Jordin, Jordon, Yunus and CCLIA..
Last day with them already sia...
But we had fun la..
I havent played bowling for ELEVEN years le!..
Last time i played was at six..
I sux at first.. But slowly got the hang of it...
First match ended with me scoring only 55.. -.-
lols...
Played another match.. My first strike came when the bowling ball came flying out from my hand.. And looked at the ball and thought.. Gone case le.. BUT i actually STRIKE..
lols.. Jordon and Jordin also quite shock.. I had a few strikes after that.. Never count.. Not important..
But a funny guy like me confirm got funny shots de ma..
But one time.. I roll the ball.. I saw the ball hit only the pin at the left and turned towards they all..
But they all were laughing.. so i turned behind and saw ONLY ONE PIN LEFT!
According to them, the left side pin fell right and the pins were like dominos falling to the right..
Then when it reached the right end.. The right pin fell left.. So like domino again.. LOLS!..
So cool rights?.. But i never get to see it myself..
I wanna play bowling soon again.. heard that the next OG outing is bowling.. Looking forward to it.. ((:
Went home after that and slept.. Woke up at 7pm by a phone call by my mum asking me to buy coconut..
At my dazed state i was like "hur?... co. co.. nut?"
Accoring to her.. NTUC got promotion.. 2 coconut for $1.65..
Quite pissed off la.. Ask me make my way to ntuc JUST TO BUY COCONUT...
So made my way to NTUC.. realised that coconut sold out le..
made my way home.. And saw something that made me wanna blog..
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I saw a women in her forties scolding her son and hitting him..
Dun really noe what she scolding about.. But confirm is about $50..
I really dun like family members quarelling about money...
ANd the son is only 7 i think..
And to think that she is beating him because of $50..
Is her son worth less than $50?..
And family members quarelling because of money.. Is love worth less than money?..
I looked at the woman and saw a old lady being left in a old folks home by her son..
And i saw her son growing up to hate his mum in his teenage years..
To me.. when a family starts getting all angry because of money matters.. I feel damn sad..
As i look at the boy who was being scolded by his mum for $5o..
I wanted to comfort him.. make his day better.. But i didn't do anything..
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OK.. love stuffs now..
Today.. I brought a letter to school.. Wanted to give her.. But didn't have the chance..
Woke up at 5 today just to write the letter.. But nvm la.. fate..
then.. i thought about her blog.. she had hidden her blog from everybody.. (at least thats what she told me)
but i google her name anyway.. and to my suprise (actually i wasn't really suprised.. kinda expected it).. found her blog.. Read it and updated myself with her life..
updated myself with her saddness.. her worries.. her anger.. her friends..
EVERYTHING that i didn't helped her...
and think that i say that I LOVE HER when i didn't even know her problems and help her..
Then i had to make a decision..
Whether to tell her i found her blog so that if she wants to hide it.. She can make it private again..
Or.. i continue reading without her knowing...
I choosed to let her know..
And maybe she will make it private again..
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Extract from her blog:
"
and that Christopher, he thought i block him from reading my blog lorrr... that is him who call me to block him de... then now he like not happy i block him... nvm.. anyway, i not only block him mah... i block everyone arh..."Thats what im doing again.. I actually letting her know that her blog is not hidden already..
High chance of blocking me (and everybody) again..
Im actually letting her block me.. But when she does....
I probably won't be happy again..
Its not that i not happy that she block me..
Im not happy that i won't be able to know how she lives anymore..
Whether she is fine.. angry.. happy or sad.. I won't know anymore.. and thats quite sad.. isn't it?.
I not so xiao qi one lor.. I won't be angry at her de.. I everytime angry with myself for everything de..
i angry that i requested that she block me from her blog although i didn't want it that way..
I angry.. that i been cold towards her.....
I didn't really talk to her these few weeks..
Because.. i didn't wanna fall deeper in love with her..
Thats one of the reasons why i requested she block me..
Didn't want her to know that i love her so much.. as it will only hurt both our friendship..
so.. i choosed self sacrifice...
But this post when published will spoil my plan.. lols..................................................
Thats why i dun wanna post about love thingy.. damn mushy oso..
I ownself oso cannot tahan already.. haiz..
This shall be the last time den..
Thats all..
To be continued...Stop lying to yourself that you love him only as a friend.. He really love him..
Thats why.. I wanna let go.. so that you can love him without any worries...
But i can't let go.. Im really sorry about this..
But dun worry about me..
I know how it feels to get ignored by someone you like and smsed for a long time..
Im just a phone call away should you wanna find me...
Monday, October 27, 2008
Chapter Seventy Three
Hi.. The date is 27 October..
The average feeling for the day is average... lols
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These are my promo grades:
Chinese language (H1) : 57
General paper (H1) : 39
Mathematics (H1) : 15
Economics (H2) :46
Management Of Business (H2) : 43
Principles of accounting (H2) : 36
In order to promote, I have to pass 2 H2 subjects.
And to pass a H2 subject, you need to get 45 marks.
And.. As you can see... I failed to promote.. Because of 2 marks..
And the school wanna retain me..
It seems that once you fail.. People would try to make decisions for you..
Friends in MI want me to stay in MI while friends in poly want me to quit MI..
My parents.. or rather my mom never really decide for me...
And so.. The decision lies with me.. And its a deision I have to make alone...
And I still have 12 hours to make that decision..
Wanted to blog more.. but i forgot... so nvm den..
thats all...
To be continued...
Monday, October 20, 2008
Chapter Seventy Two
Hi... The date is 20th october..
The average feeling for the day is bored...
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Sorry for not updating for so long. The reason is because I've nothing to blog about. My life is kinda boring these few days... So no point blogging...
Well.. There is no school for me today as its the pre-u ones promotional exercise. The teachers in school are deciding on my fate in school right now.
Hahas.. To think that MY future is now in their hands.. haha..
Oh ya, and I told my home tutor (form teacher) the other day that I wasn't ready to be promoted.. HAHA!.. And she told me repeating the year isn't such a bad thing as people who repeat normally get better results..
But the problem is if I'm repeating, I will be spending FOUR years in MI... -.-'''
Somemore I dunno whether I can make it or not...
Today, I woke up at 10:50am as I'm gonna meet Zann later to pass me back my MOB file..
Lend it to her for a few months le..
We arranged to meet at 11:15am at hougang mrt station.. Then she told me she is gonna be late and changed the time to 11:30.. Then she told me she gonna be really late and told me to do other things first.
So i went to eat lunch at mac.
The wasabi shaker fries really SUX.. BIG TIME...
The reason?......
Firstly.. Mac turn us in idiots.. I felt like an idiot shaking the fries in the bag.. People around me are behaving like idiots too, shaking the fries. It creates so much noise la.. I shook the fries as slowly as possible.. And I saw a kid shaking his cup corn becuase he saw me shaking the fries.. =.=
Secondly, the taste really suck. Ya, it has the wasabi taste.. Spicy.. Thats good.. But the thing is also so sweet.. And with all the powder stuck to my fries.. It looked really gross..
Thridly.. Its my fault la.. Some of the powder went into my nose and I choked and started sneezing like crazy..
But I managed to finished that damn thing as its my policy to finish all my fries.. Lols.. Don't wanna waste food.. And I won't put the wasabi powder in my fries again!.. NEVER!
But you can try it if you want to.. (:
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Oh ya.. And then Zann called me when I just finished sneezing and told me she just reached hougang. Hahas.. And she asked me why I sound so sick, I told her its because of th wasabi powder.
So I made my way to the mrt station to meet her.. Chatted with her about some stuffs..
She told me that Mdm Isliana told her that she would tell tell the whole class its zann's fault if I failed MOB!
WTH?!?!
Luckily I asked zann's permission whether its ok to tell Mdm Isliana that the file is with her and she said ok.. And she don't really mind..
So its not so bad...
But seriously its not zann's fault.. After the MOB exam I sort of knew that I was gonna fail le and didn't really care about taking back the file.
I tried la.. But I dind't try hard enough.. If i really wanna take back I would have gotten it back de..
So its really not Zann's fault.. Haiz.. Feel so guitly...
We chatted for about 10 mins and I went back home..
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I'm gonna continue on my story although I don' feel like writing anymore.. And then I edit and make it better and will probably post on my blog.. So stay tune..
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Random stuffs:
I lost track of my life and now I can't find my way back...
The debate whether machines or man is more powerful had come to a conclusion..
The winner is machines..
The reason?.....
Machines have the restart/reset function while humans not not have...
Thats all...
To be continued...
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Chapter Seventy One
Hi.. Decided to change my blog skin again.. lol
Just find that the old skin too plain and unsuitable for me.. Yupp..
So changed the skin...
Sorry for not updating or eplying the tags... Cause my computer having some problems.. :(
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Hi... The date is 13th october..
The average feeling for the day is sleepy.. lols.. Its 12:22AM... *yawn..
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Went class outing on 10 oct at east coast.
This may be my last outing with my classmates since i won't get promoted.
Went there with Jerome and Jor Din.
Rent a bike and tried to cycle from east coast to bedok with Jerome.
We got lost a few times and gave up in the end but the journey was quite fun.
Went back the BBQ pit and slacked... I didn't really eat any BBQ food at all.. Skipped dinner..
Wanted to eat supper, but the rest decided to travel from east coast to changi airport.
We started the journey at 2:30AM and reached there at 4AM...
Amin crashed his bike and we slacked at changi beach for 1 hour as we look for a cab to send the damaged bike back to the pit.
Jerome went on the cab since he had a appointment later in the morning.
After that we made our way back. Reached east coast at 7:30AM
Damn tiring because I never eat dinner.
Returned the bikes (we had three damaged bikes) and went home.
Damn sleepy.....
Reached home at 10AM and slept till 12PM. Woke up and went my cousin's house to celebrate my aunty's birthday.
The only non-adults are Olivia, Olithia and Natalie.
I was very sleepy at first, but after eating I felt much better.
And then adorable Qi Ren arrived and I woke up.. LOLS..
She is 3 and she is DAMN CUTE...
Lols.. Dunno how to explain her cuteness..
We went to the playground and played along with her.. hahas..
Went home at 8 plus, watch tv and slept finally..
Thats all...
To be continued...
Qi Ren emoing... She looks so cute even when she is sad... LOLS!..
Qi Ren emoing... She looks so cute even when she is sad... LOLS!..
