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Thursday, July 31, 2008

Chapter Fifty Six

Yo.. Notice my blog's song?.. yea... The song is really intense isn't it?..
Its 'The end is the begining is the end' by Smashing pumpkins
Ya.. I fell in love in this music..
Its the kind of music that some people may not find comfortable with.... Thats why i like it.. hehe..
Its also the song for the trailer of watchmen... (:
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31/07/08

I woke up at 5am today to finish MOB..
Den relised that my PE shorts haven't dry yet..
Den i realised i need to bring two econs text book to school today.......
Really feel like skipping school...
Arrive just in time.... blah blah blah..

played some stupid game during PE.. wasn't really in the game..
Den after PE played basketball with Jerome, Brandon, Alex, Jordin and Derrick..
Kinda de-stressed..
Haiz..... blah blah blah....

Trained with Jerome.. alighted at ang mo kio... took 74 back to hougang..
Den i overslept in the bus..
The bus reached hougang bus interchange and i was still sleeping..
He was about to park the bus when i woke up..
He turn around and was shocked to see me....... LOLS!...

Reached home.. Remembered i was supposed to go PS with MI mart people after school today..
But i will be going douby ghaut tomoro anyway... watching dark knight tomoro..

OH YA..... MI MART

Dear friends,

My school have this MI mart thingy for the business students..
The school want us to set up our own business to experience working life...lols..
Support me please!..

MI mart:

DATE: 2nd August (saturday)
TIME; 11am to 9pm..
VENUE: Plaza Singapura
If you are coming please contact me.. lols..
We will be selling tee shirts and stuffs.. yea.. lols..
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I dun wanna get all emoish about love life thingy..
But seriously..
IM TIRED........
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Transcendence is ok.. not my best though..
Will blog more about it when video is uploaded.. (:

To be continued...
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The End is the Beginning is the End by smashing pumpkins

LYRICS:

(verse one)
Send a heartbeat to...
The void that cries through you...
Relive the pictures that have come to pass.....
For now we stand alone.......
The world is lost and blown....
And we are flesh and blood disintegrate...
With no more to hate...

(chorus)
Is it bright where you are...
Have the people changed...
Does it make you happy...
you're so strange...
And in your darkest hour....
I hold secrets flame...
We can watch the world devoured in it's pain....

(verse two)
Delivered from the blast...
The last of a line of lasts...
The pale princess of a palace cracked...
And now the kingdom comes...
Crashing down undone...
And I am a master of a nothing place...
Of recoil and grace..

(chorus)
Is it bright where you are...
Have the people changed...
Does it make you happy...
you're so strange...
And in your darkest hourI hold secrets flame...
We can watch the world devoured in it's pain....

(verse three)
Time has stopped before us...
The sky cannot ignore us..
No one can separate us...
For we are all that is left..
The echo bounces off me...
The shadow lost beside me...
There's no more need to pretend..
Cause now I can begin again...

(chrous)
Is it bright where you are...
Have the people changed...
Does it make you happy...
you're so strange...
And in your darkest hourI hold secrets flame...
We can watch the world devoured in it's pain...
Strange....
Strange....
Strange..........

Friday, July 25, 2008

Chapter Fifty Five

Today went for PTM..
Took 74 with mom and den switch to 157 and alighted at school..
Yeap.. Today is PTM.. (parents teacher meeting)..
Arrived quite early so took mom to the cafe before meeting the teachers...
Den went hall..
While waiting for my turn... Mrs Tay (my accounting teacher) came and talk to my mum..
But its not as bad as i expected..
Den our turn came.. IT WASN'T AS BAD AS I EXPECTED..
My 'U' grades became 'S' grades after adding in other components like class participation and class assignments.. hehe..
And my conduct was VERY GOOD.. lols.. Kinda suprised.. (:
After meeting the form teacher.. i saw Miss Rose Ho walking towards my mum... I was thinking..'GREAT.. GAME OVER...' But Miss Ho actually said she has nothing to complain about me!.. LOLS!.. I was playing games with her yesterday la.. lols..

And oh ya.. and SHERMAN.. purposely called me.. and my phone restarted and couldn't be switched on for....NINE HOURS!!!!!!...grrrr...

Went drama for practice.. Took me a while to get into an extremely difficult role i will be performing for transcendence tomoro!..

My role is :

A five year old kid who says corny pick up lines, tuck in HIGH HIGH with suspenders, den getting beaten up by girls, then start crying , then eat spinach, body reacts to spinach (vibrates.. with popeye the sailor man music in back ground..), den do stupid kung fu moves that scares everyone before exiting the stage with a retarded crab-like walking cum kung fu style..

LOLS!.... Very hard to get into character.. But i found a way.. I jus need to imitate heath ledger's joker and i can be damn high.. lols.. Cause once i get into the midset of Joker.. Everything crazy is nothing to me..
Havent watch the dark knight though.. Watching next week with yi heen and gang.. (:
Can't wait to see Heath's last performance.. Really admire him..
Hope i could work towards his acting skills..
SO LETS START WITH TOMORO'S PERFORMANCE....

TRANSCENDENCE.. HERE I COME!!!!

RIP..

To be continued...

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Chapter Fifty Four 24/07/07

hi guys.. today i took the 6:25 train at hougang.. But end up oversleeping in the train.. Woke up one stop after the stop im supposed to alight.. I alighted at CHINESE GARDEN when supposed to be at JURONG EAST..
So took train back to jurong east.. DAMN SIAN.. cause although i took an earlier train.. I arrived later than those who took the 6:37 at hougang.. haiz.. Reach school quite late so never go cafe..

Went class.. Mdm ISLIANA started scolding us again.. She especially picked on some poor classmates in my class..
YEA.. about my class.. The closer we got together.. The more they are strangers to me..
I mean, everyone will have someone that hates them and someone who likes them riites?..
So.. If i get closer with them.. sure more people will be friends with me.. But who knows how many will hate me?..
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OH YA!.. went to the toilet to change in PE today..

DEN there is this STUPID guy from other class, who sprayed this STUPID thing, on the STUPID fan, which blew that STUPID thing on my STUPID face.. den that STUPID guy start singing some STUPID song..
Its damn STUPID la.. Not everybody like the spray smell ma.. den he go spray it on the fan.. Den the smell blow everywhere.. STUPID...
So i left the STUPID toilet, and met my classmates we asked me to go in that STUPID toilet to change together.. Den i went to one STUPID corner furthest away from that STUPID guy..

Next time spray that STUPID thing on yourself snce you like that smell so much.. I don't care if girls like that smell or not.. But i hate that smell.. expecially when it comes from YOU.. LOLS!..
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LAter in the day.. went econs lesson.. Jerome and I kept on passing the textbook around becasue he don't have one.. lols..

And.. ermmm... went home with Jerome and Jordin again..
Accompany jordin for dinner.. Den after dinner he say stomach not feeling well so went toilet with him.. hehe..
Den took train back.. AND I OVERSLEPT in the train again.. Thats not all.. REACH HOME.. NOBODY AT HOME.. I FORGOT TO BRING KEY.. haiz.. THREW my bag into the window and went hougang mall walk around before going home.. lols..

To be continued...

Monday, July 21, 2008

Chapter Fifty Three

Today took 165 to ang mo kio den took train to bukit batok.. cause today 9 plus den need to report to school ma..

Ermmmm..... Today racial harmony day..
Ermmm.. Dunno what to say leh..

But i feel that the class is getting more and more united le..
Its not that i don't like la.. Its just that i feel kinda strange..
Cause i ended talking to people i don't know that well..
And ended up interacting with the class..
LOLS... the first few weeks i damn quiet one la.... Now need to learn to open up le....

Ermmmm... After school i took bus with Jor din and jerome..
On the way home, Jerome say i emo.. But i am not.. lols.. Maybe very tired ba...
Den Din and I alighted at toa payoh..

On the way to our bus stop..
We saw a cat..
lying on the floor..
With its tongue sticking out..
Its skull crush..
and eye ball out of its sockets..
The worst part is....... The eye ball is SQUASHED...
DAMN DISGUSTING!...

I recieve a e mail with pictures of another cat's carcass with its eye ball rolling out not long ago..
What i saw today.. was even worse...

Reached home.. Did econs.. play halo with Jerome and now blogging..
thats all ba.. (:

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When people fall in love with someone.. They tend to be oblivious of their surroundings..
Take for instance..

Girl A loves Boy A..
But Boy B loves Girl A...
But Boy A doesn't love Girl A..
Den Girl A start to emo... and start ranting that no one cares about her.. blah blah blah blah.. (:
Although Boy B cares about Girl A.. Girl A doesn't feel anything....

ISn't this scnerio very familiar?.. hehe..

Wad about GOD?..
Once we humans believe that our religion's GOD is the ONE TRUE GOD..
We ignore all the other facts from other religion about our GOD...
Like i said.. We become oblivious when we fall in love with someone.. For this instance GOD..

FAITH DOESN'T MEAN BLIND FAITH..

Thats why i love studying other religions...
One who wants to grow in faith should study other religions..
MUSLIMS.. they study christianity you know?..
lols.. we christians should be like them!.. we should know more about Islam..
Lols.. and one muslim gave me a very good point which i can't answer.. And my cell group friend also cannot answer.. lols..
BUT i believe there is a asnwer.. (: Still waiting.. (:

To be continued...

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Chapter Fifty Two - 19/07/08

Yesterday normal school day..
Den went drama for the workshop..
Went back hougang ans saw sec school friends.. Wei Jie, Jac, Shi Min, Wei Tong, Xin Ye and vanessa..
Caught up with wei jie.. talk quite alot before going home..
I lie down on my bed after shower to rest.. Who knowes i fell asleep..

ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..............

Woke up today at 7:50am.. WHEN i supposed to be im school at 8;00AM!!!
Casue i never expect myself to fall asleep.. so never set alarm clock..
Went for transcendence rehershal..
Gonna edit our script..
Zann's singing was fanastic.. She sang 'fall for you'..
and her version was better than the original... (:
went home and use computer..

To be continued...

PS: I understand you need a friend more than a lover right now.. (: hehe..

Friday, July 18, 2008

Chapter Fifty One

lols.. Jerome tagged everyone.. To do the test..
Could choose not to though.. But it looks fun.. never do before..

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Damn dissapointed la.. But will do nothing and see what the other party do..
2. If you can have a dream come true, what will it be?
Earn lots of money..
3. If you could be one place now, where would it be?
Heaven.. Wanna know whether GOD is real or not..
4. What is the scariest thing that happened to you?
Parents getting angry becasue of result?..
5. What is your ideal lover like?
Don't need TOO pretty.. Most importantly trust and share of problems and happiness together..
6.Which is more blessed? Being love or loving someone?
Ermm.. which is more pain?.. Losing someone that love you or losing someone you love?.
7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you truly love?
Forever?.. Cause i can't live without my loved one.. Somemore i chi qing..
8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Still love her la.. But in another way.. Not breaking up the couple but giving the girl happiness..
9. Is there anything that makes you unhappy these days?
YES!.. But i always got something to make me happy again..
10. What do you want most in life?
LOVE..
11. What is the worst situation in love?
Pretending to love someone.. Which involves lying to yourself and the other party..
12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
Girlfriend and stable career..
13. Who is the most important person to you?
Cant decide whether its my brother or my mom..
14. What type of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Ermmm.. Caring?.. But will do stupid things so he won't be TOO caring..
15. Would you rather be single and rich, or married but poor?
............... married but poor..... LOLS...
16. If you could have a animal for pet, what would it be?
Penguin.. (:
17. What are some of the things you prefer not to do?
Ermmm.. waking up early..
18. What kind of person you think you are?
LAME...
19. What do you define as a bad day?
Getting back all your mid year results, and knowing that your loved one is in trouble but can do nothing to help...
20.If you were to die tommorow, what would you do today?
Baptised, tell all my loved ones i love them, fogive others, lose my virginity ( dun wanna die a virgin) lols..

DONE.. you could do if you want to.. (:

17/07/08

Today dark knight is out.. (:
School ended at 11.25.. Jerome hurt his ankle.. Poor guy ankle swollen..
That POOR guy gave nstructions to others on how to help himself.. quite ironic..
Went drama..
Had fun..
Met Jordin and jerome after school and went home together.. (:

To be continued...

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Chapter Fifty

Woah.. ranted on my blog.. My blog so poor thing.. (:
hahas..
It seems like sleep really helps me relax.. (:
Wanna thank my friends too.. (:

This morning took the 6:30am train and went to the cafe and met with jordon after reaching school..
Ordered Hot coffee (not iced) and TWO packets of sugar.. Yeah.. Thats the amount of the packets of sugar i add to my coffeeS.. (:
Found out that jordon has cuts on his hands..
It appears that the poor guy got scratched by his cat..
Thats why i hate cats.. One minute they are nice.. another minute they go CRAZY!.. hehe
Lessons as usual after that..
Oh ya.. pauline baked cookies for us today again. Its the same recipe again though.. But then really wanna thank her la.. lols.. Jerome told me he feel kinda guilty eating them.. lols.. actually me too.. (:

After school went to discuss our GP project tomoro.. Kinda worried.. lols..
Den after that, which was around 6;30pm took train back home with Jordin. Jerome. Pauline and Li yong.. Heh.. all of them are good friends.. (:
Lols.. and pauline kept on smelling Jerome's towel.. Damn funny!... lols.. never laugh like that for long time le.. Laugh till eyes got tears.. (:

haiz.. my problem haven't solve yet.. But i'm not that hurt compared to previous days..
Only Jerome knows my problem.. But its not a really a secret that i cant tell Jordon or Jordin though.. I just don't have the time.. (;

KK.. kept on putting smiley face.. so i think i ok le ba.. (:
end here..

To be continued.. (never the end)

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Below is a video made from the song 'KIM'
Its written by Marshall Matters.. Better know as Eminem..
KIM.. Its a nickname my OG mates gave me.. (:
But this song is ... not... funny... hahas..
This song is a love song actually... One of my favourites..
Its about how hurt Eminem would feel if his wife, Kim, had a another man behind him.... He loves his wife so much that he decides to kill her...
Kinda sad..
But i wouldnt do that though.. My most basic priciple is NEVER TO BEAT A GIRL.. (:

KIM - Eminem ( Enjoy, lyrics bottom of video, Before lsitening.. Off music at bottom right )

*This song contains violent content and adult languages (E.g 'F' word, female dog).. Should you feel uncomfortable.. Please do not listen to this song..Please DON'T listen this infront of a child.. This song is rated M18 but who cares?.. (:
You have been warned..

Eminem:

Aww look at daddy's baby girl.
That's daddy baby..Little sleepy head..
Yesterday , I changed your diaper..
Wiped you and powdered you.
How did you get so big?..Can't believe it now your two..
Baby you're so precious..Daddy's so proud of you..
Sit down bitch!!If you move again I'll beat the shit out of you!!!!

Eminem as Kim: (Okay)

Eminem:

Don't make me wake this baby..
She don't need to see what I'm about to do..
Quit crying bitch, why do you always make me shout at you?
How could you?Just leave me and love him out the blue?
Oh, what's a matter Kim?Am I too loud for you?
Too bad bitch, your gonna finally hear me out this time!
At first, I'm like all right..You wanna throw me out? That's fine!
But not for him to take my place, are you out you're mind?
This couch, this TV, this whole house is mine!
How could you let him sleep in our bed?
Look at Kim! Look at your husband now! (No!)
I said look at him! He ain't so hot now is he?Little punk!
(Why are you doing this?)
Shut the fuck up! (You're drunk! You're never going to get away at this!)
You think I give a fuck??? Come on we're going for a ride bitch (No!)
Sit up front (Well I can't just leave Haley alone, what if she wakes up?)
We'll be right back..Well I will you'll be in the trunk..

Chorus:

So long, bitch you did me so wrong...
I don't wanna go on...Living in this world without you...[Repeat]

Eminem:

You really fucked me Kim..You really did a number on me..
Never knew me cheating on you would come back to haunt me...
But we was kids then Kim, I was only 18..That was years ago...
I thought we wiped the slate clean!! That's fucked up! (I love you!)
Oh God my brain is racing(I love you!)
What are you doing?Change the station I hate this song!
Does this look like a big joke?..(No!)
There's a four year old boy lyin' dead with a slit throat!In your living room, ha-ha!
What you think I'm kiddin' you?
You loved him didn't you? (No!)
Bullshit you bitch don't fucking lie to me! What the fuck's this guy's problem on the side of me?Fuck you asshole, yeah bite me!!! Kim, KIM!Why don't you like me?
You think I'm ugly don't you(It's not that!)
No you think I'm ugly(Baby) Get the fuck away from me, don't touch me!!!
I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!I SWEAR TO GOD I HATE YOU!!!OH MY GOD I LOVE YOU..
How the fuck could you do this to me?!? (Sorry!)
How the fuck could you do this to me?!?

(chorus)

Eminem:

Come on get out (I can't I'm scared)
I said get out bitch! (Let go of my hair, please don't do this baby)
(Please I love you, look we can just take Haley and leave)
Fuck you, you did this to us!!!You did it, it's your fault..
Oh my God I'm crackin' up!!!Get a grip Marshall...
Hey remember the time we went to Brian's party?
And you were like so drunk that you threw up all over Archie?
That was funny wasn't it? (Yes!)That was funny wasn't it? (Yes!)
See it all makes sense, doesn't it?
You and your husband have a fight..One of you tries to grab a knife..
And during the struggle he accidentally gets his Adam's apple sliced(No!)
And while this is goin' on, His son just woke up and he just walks in..
She panics and he gets his throat cut(Oh my God!)
So now they both dead and you slash your own throat...
So now it's double homicide and suicide with no note..
I should have known better when you started to act weird...
We could've...HEY! Where you going?!?! Get back here!
You can't run from me Kim...t's just us, nobody else!
You're only making this harder on yourself!!!
Ha! Ha! Got'cha!!! (Ahh!) Ha! Go ahead yell!
Here I'll scream with you! AH SOMEBODY HELP!!
Don't you get it bitch, no one can hear you?
Now shut the fuck up and get what's comin to you!!!
You were supposed to love me!!!
{*Kim choking*}
NOW BLEED BITCH BLEED!BLEED! BITCH BLEED! BLEED!

Monday, July 14, 2008

Chapter Forty Nine

TWO POST on the same day..

wanna blog my feelings now.. in case i really snap...........

I got this feeling i will never be happy again.. (:

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahaqahahahahahahhaahahhahahahahahaha
hahahashahahahaHAHAHAAHAhaahah
ahahahahahahahahhahaahahahahahahah!!!!!!!!

YOU THINK I GIVE A FUCK?!?!?!?!?!

wAD MAKES A EVIL PERSON really EVIL?....
When the evil person thinks what he doing is right...
Want a clearer defination?...
IT MEANS WHEN THE EVIL PERSON DOESN't GIVE A FUCK about the THINGS HE DOES!!!!
hahahas!... assholes... BOOM!... hahas.. ten dead... BOMB!...

I CARE!!.. DO YOU thinK i care?.. I care.. am i good?.. wad the fuck?.. who cares?..
if you dun.. are yu evil...

wooo... i think i really did snap....... my blog victim of the wrath..
I DON"T RElEASE MY ANGER on living things assholes... DON"T WORRY...
HAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAS,,
My blog victiim...
hahahas,,,,,,,,,, woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

To be continued.............................
(WISH I COULD PUT "THE END'"..)

PS: Im sorry if you found my post offensive......... ahahahahahahahs!

Chapter Forty Eight

TODAY REALLY IN A BAD MOOD....
Went to school feeling damn emo... Because of my point.. or my NA..
I feel so helpless la.. Wanna help...
But the only way to help is to betray myself.....

Den got back ALL the papers le.....

H1

GP- 28/100 U
MT-47/100 E
Maths 14/100 U

H2

MOB-22/100 U
Econs-53/100 D
POA-31/100 U

Damn dissapointing.............. For Jerome and me.. lols..
On the way home today we both oso never talk much........
I really feel so stuffed up.. So lost.. So confused...
The whole day damn tired.. But not tired at the same time...
But after sleeping in the train and killing people in HALO... I start to feel better le.....

I drank coffee two times today.. Maybe the caffine is acting uip and i don't feel well mentally and physically...

haiz... haiz.., haiz... (heart pain)

To be continued...

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Chapter Forty Seven

Hahas.. Change the blog music..
'HEY JULIET'.. Catchy tune.. Introduced to me by a friend last year..
Remind me of lots of memories..
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12 July 2008

Today went Bedok to do GP project..
I was in a bad mood.. Never felt so bad for a long time le.. (:
I thought no one would notice.. But.. it appears that i showed it on my face without knowing it..
All my friends knew something was wrong with me..
So they started guessing from hungry to tired to emo because of love life..
Pualine kept on asking me.. I couldn't tell her casue if i did i would cry.. (i was already tearing)
But its all wrong...... LOLS!..
Well.. Maybe abit of wad im upset of came from my love life.. lols..

Actually.......... I hope those GP people who were guessing are reading this.. Cause im gonna reveal the reason..
IM MAD AT MYSELF!.. for being late... for the 3rd time....... and i was feeling guilty......
I REALISED I DON'T GET ANGRY WITH PEOPLE EASILY BUT I GET ANGRY WITH MYSELF EASILY.. lols..
But got better as time passes.. By the time i saw pauline photos.. I cheered up.. (:
I lied to pauline that her bf was my cousin..
And her face was COMPLETELY SHOCK.. hahas.. She kept on saying "WTF!!!WTF!!!"
Lols.. She believed casue her bf kinda look like me.. (kinda).. plus he lives near me.. hahas..
But in the end I reveal my lie la.. Then everybody laughed..... lols.. ;D
I bluff one of my friends last time too..
Told HIM i was his DISTANT COUSIN.... lols.. and he believed for half a day before i told him the truth.. lols..

so funny.. :D

Ok... end here ba.. (:

To be continued....

PS: below is the iron man photo i took from the cmics convection fair..
DAmn cool riites?..

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Photos taken during Comics and toy convection... (photo credits Anastasia)

Flowers..

Archie comics..

They PRO la.. Use lego to build singapore island.. Can you spot Changi airport, merlion and singapore flyer?.. lols

Cute monster..

This rabbit nver dies..

WOAH!!!.. Toy collecter's ambition..

Spiderman VS sandman and venom

EMO SPIDER...

Superman and Lois

Luthor defeats Superman.. ):

Master Yoda

Master Yoda VS count dooku.. (:

thats all.. (:

Monday, July 07, 2008

Chapter Forty Six

Hi!.. Sorry for not updating for so long.. Cause i was waiting for my friends to send me the photos of the 'Singapore Toy and comic convention' before updating.. Cause the photos are really nice..

But then she sent me everything in microsoft word.. And being a computer noob..
I dunno how to extract them from microsoft word...

Wellll......

06/07/08
Went to flim for TCP again..
Reached Simei by twelve and then see the rest had karaoke session at brian's house..
Den i sang 'xing bu liao qing' too.. hehe..
Den flim for 10 mins den over le.. (:

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Recently read a graphic novel damn nice..
Its called 'revealations'
It about a detective who was in charge of investigating the death of one of the important figures of the catholic church..
And the church kept on wanting to close the case..
So the detective believes he was in some kinda conspiracy of the church...
But in the end.. He solved the case..
The church want to close the case to hide the fact that GOD is real...
Which struck me..

Why do people believe in God?..
People believe in God becasue of FAITH...
But what happens when there is PROOF that GOD exsit?..

The novel says : 'If you get proof... You lose hope..'
Woah.. lols.. Think about it...

To be continued...