Saturday, September 23, 2006
heys!!!
dunno wad to blog...
jus wanna say sorry....
im sorry im not a good son...im sorry im not a good student...im sorry im not a good fren... imsorry im not a good boy... im sorry im not a good person... im sorry im not a good servent...
IM SORRY!!!...
havent study for end of year yet...haiz..plus i so weak in moi subjects...
now log off to study le...
cya..
very bored so i blog lor...
haiz... but oso nothing to blog leh...havent study yet... so logging off to study..hahas...
bye...
Friday, September 15, 2006
15 sept:
Eleanor say my blog rotting so blogging now lor.. today woke up and went school... normal lessons... Den played games with shawn.. den went drama and went home...
Ermmm.. nothing much le lor.. jus that I realized that god's plan is good for me... because if it did not happen I will not noe who my true frens are...and I had discovered the sweetest fren of all............. Lord Jesus Christ...yup...I had been brought closer to god through this...
POEM by christopher chee:
A heart is like a vase..
Its fragile..
So handle it with care..
Coz once its broken..
Its considered sold...
But I tot through it le la... love is giving and not expecting anything back..IT HURTS.. but if the person u love is happy..its worth it...
thats it..
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Hey again... I woke up at Thursday morning... blogging about yesterday.. went school for maths lesson.. Den got disturbed by Edwin so I went to bing hui there to study.. wa.. den I finally paid attention to maths.. But soon by attention drifted.. but I did paid attention...hahas..
Den went home changed clothes and went school again.. Played soccer and played LAN with xuan yi.. Den I lost to him in dota.. Den.. ermmm.. went hougang mall with him and both of us ate with marie.. den after tat played lan again.. den after tat went compass for dinner.. yup.. den went home.. kaes tat settles it...
I began asking questions about god lately and but no one seems to be able to answer me.. Which is shocking... wads the point of praying wen u dunno who u are praying to???...
And I wish tat I had the power to travel back in time.. There are too many regrets.. things tat I should had done and said in the past... i spent time in bed tossing around thinking where would i land up if i said those words... kaes... I noe I must accept god's plan.. but to be honest with u god.. I hate your plan.. so far.. I see no purpose in living.. I see no good in my life.. please.. show me wad good is there in my plan...
Thanks...
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Today I woke up and went out.. went LAN to play cs.. but I the end played DOTA..understand more about it today…bought green apple milk tea and went home… later went compass with mum for dinner...den went home found out forgot bring keys..then my dad opened the door for me..
Tats settles for toda..kaes.. now..a message for U..
I read ur blog.. noe..how should I reply u..
Lets start with...me threatening u tat I wanna die..I think u got the wrong idea.. im not threatening u.. im telling u my problems.. why did I tell u???...coz..I dowan to die..I wan U to tell me the way out.. I asked U whether u wanted me to die because on that day I really felt like ending my life.. I chose to die.. and I ask u whether I should.. if I had read ur blog at that day I would had ended my life..
And I noe im bothering u.. but I cannot control myself from not bothering u..the onli solution is for me to die.. as I noe after I die u will be much happier..u should had scream at me.. I didn’t noe I was bothering u tat badly…I noe u are not lying… but u must admit u do break promises???...and I wanted u to argue back..because I think tat through arguing pp noe each other better..and its only to u its straight forward but to me.. I jus dun get it.. dun u noe im stupid???...
And tat time when I told u abt u changing ur attitude to me.. u told me.. u didn't noe u had changed??...and now u are admitting u had changed..and how did I caused tat changed???... all I did was to return to the past wen we were frens.. how does tat made u guilty???... and it jus doesn’t make sense to me.. if u felt guilty and terrible.. would u scold tat person and make tat person even sadder??..
I dun remember replying u tat I scolded u jus to talk to u.. but I remembered finding things to scold u.. I admit to tat..can I couldn’t get a life.. im dead inside.. I want life.. u oso got si lian before ma.. u should understand how I felt... I need encouragement to overcome this ordeal...my frens helped me a lot.. but all I really need is encouragement from U..I wanted u to guide me through this ordeal.. I needed u to get me move on in life.. but u did nothing..
Its really sad things turned out this way... From really good frens in the past we have to land up in this state???... Do things have o change after we broke up???...
Hey.. think about my words kaes???...
God bles...........
Friday, September 01, 2006
i woke up at friday afternoon...
i prayed to god... to show me a sign that his really there... i went online..and i found out that... his there... he told me some words...i tink im about to be free... but am i able to pass this test???...den chat with xiao min on msn... was kinda happy...
yesterday...yup...today so far uneventful yet... so blogging about yesterday...woke up... i could have died... but i did not... so i continued bothering u... went school...it was raining... half way saw two girls without umbrella..... so i lent them and walked to school... met sean... den went hall... den aces day workout...went back class...recieve back report book...i dunno why i failed art... den went hall... for concert... mr yeo was really funny.. so i forgot all my problems and went high...was shaking alot of teachers hands with xuan yi and did crazy things... i went to the boys toilet and waved at everone... i tink someone saw me la... lols...
went to primary school with xuan yi later and ate at coffee shop first... and bought roti prata... den went pri school ate from 3 stalls and was following alot of pp... den soon i relieazed that a girl i saw in school was my pri 6 class mate... and i did not noe it!!!... but she really change alot...
went sean's house played x-box and watched DVD.... den went hougang mall ate KFC with my mum...den went home....
kaes...ending here...
