SloW aND SaD LiFE..

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Chapter 163 - An end to a chapter (a beginning of another)

Im nineteen now.. The route to the end of teenage life starts from now..

Things gets better once its defined and clearer.

Spent my last few mins of being eighteen wif my dearest twin and nUt..
But we went home before we went past midnite..
Really great time and im looking towards the 5th of June..

Dearest Min, HAPPY BIRTHDAY.. Fate allowed us to be born on the same day, and may fate make us stay as frens forever. :) lets pursue our dreams tgt ya?

At midnite, i opened lynn and yana's present. And of cos mum's.. :)
Im sure theres more to come.. *cough cough cough..

Facebook is a horror! 100 plus msgs in my inbox! I noe others may have more on their birthdae.. But to me is alot alr!
And i replied all of them personally and uniquely.. Each diff from others i think.. But I kinda put the same words but diff smileys as they are so many!
Even people I never talked to wished me..
Lots of suprise and catching up to do i guess.. :)

Birthdays keep getting better and better..
Facebook bdae wishes rose indicate a widening social circle.. lol..
But it was the events that were not planned that was the sweetest..

Todae was wad i call, 'Pinkish-Black'
Better than all the colors combined..
When i think back now, its Pinkish-Black i will think about..

Too many first times todae..
First there was S, den W, den L, den C..
And I got closer to my family too.. Im happy for tat.. Especially dad whom i do not talk to often..
And i got to try out my wish... Tho it may not succeed,,,

Wowie.. These kinda birthdays are hard to come.. May not have it next yr..
WTHeck I waited 19 years for this kinda birthday!

To be continued..

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Interlude

This is not a chapter but an interlude.

Perhaps something popped out that made me wanna blog.
Perhaps I did something wrong.
Perhaps the chinese paper was hard and i wanna blog it down
Perhaps i find GP essay (except last para) and AQ ok, and wanna blog it down.

Im not angry suprisingly. Not hurt.
Should I be?
I dunno. But i noe im not upset..

But why do i have the urge to blog now?
Perhaps.. Perhaps.. Perhaps...

Im in the wrong i noe.. But I'm not gonna say wad wrong i am in...

My birthday is coming.. ya noe wad is my greatest wish..
If ya are reading this..
ya noe.. ya noe..

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Chapter 163 - I wanna do a comic book on my life! :D (cos its a joke...)

Was feeling kinda low but after watching Collin Raye's 'Shes with Me' video, Im feeling better.
It's the most beautiful song I've heard.
I had to hold back my tears for this one..

Really good singer.. First singer tat have alot of songs tat i like. Normally i like the singers due to a handful of songs tat are great.
But Collin Raye?

Shes with me, In this life, Hurricane jane, I think about you, Love me, 11th Commandment, One boy, One girl and many more I havent listen to but im sure to love them too..

Im a fan of Collin Raye. Def for a long time.

Ok. Time for the entry i drafted in my mind.

*****

How can ya be tat happy?

When I was young, my mama use to tell me to do things now, or else ya will regret in the future wad ya didn't do in the past. I nodded and say 'Orh...'

The truth that it ought to be...

But it didn't strike me till this year. I meant not getting good grades for 'O' levels and making it to MI is bad, but i learn to appreciate things tat appear to be bad turns out to be good. I didn't regret my time in MI, not even retaining.

But this issue. It certainly won't lead to a good end. Not for me. And not for ya.

Turquoise,

Black,

Black,

Pink,

Blue,

Black,

Green/white,

Blue/white,

White,

???.

Nine significant colors. Out of these colors. Blue is the happiest. Blue/white was the lowest.
But out of these colors, pink, blue and black are the most memorable. Pink was when everything should have changed. Blue was when I was reminded. Black was when I thought i still had it.

When i think back. Its always these 3 colors. White is cool too but its always these 3.

Maybe I shouldn't be soft. Maybe I should be a jerk.

But tell me wad should i do now. I dun wanna hate june. Nor its sundays.

Pls... Jus tell me its not too late and i will feel happier tenfold..

To be continued...

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Chapter 162 - Smiles

There are many kind of smiles, people reverse their frowns for various reasons.

Happy smiles,

Forced smiles,

Smiles because we care,

Smiles when ya accomplished somethings.

When there are reasons to frown, often comes a reverse, a smile.
And yet, a smile at these times do not solve the problems, but distracts the problem.

The greatest irony of life is perhaps smiling when ya least expected it.
To become a reflected paraody of life, that turns us into, comedians.

Wad more can i say?

Transcendence today. Kudos to everyone. Red's ass-shaking, Blue's boob depletion, Green's Speech, Yellow nervousness, Purple's isanity, Orange's PORN, Grey's lazy and rude remarks, Grey's assistant's silence, Black's boob push, White's innocent improvisations. Color King's authority and the jury's hair twirling. Curtain closes. Cheers. Claps.

I was wrong about one thing.
Good times never end.
The purple rain will continue, with the thunderstorm of applauses and appreciation.
And the socializing of colors created colors on you and me.
To be in theatre and people cheering ya on, something perhaps video acting can't satisfy.
As we wait for July, we live on, as one.

Curtain closes. But not forver. Waiting to be reopened. For the cheers. Again. Soon.

To be continued...

Monday, May 17, 2010

Chapter 161

Its not over..
My probs at june are not solved.. Damn!
Really damn..

Feeling dam sick these few days.. Felt like vomiting..
But still went sch todae.. :/

Yest was Jer's birthdae..
16th May..
Was thinking back of the 16th may for the past 2 yrs..
MI carnival, MI sports carnival and Gp paper..
Time passes really fast..
Soon i will be alone in MI..

To be continued...

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

Chapter 160 - Tears

There are many kinds of tears, ppl shed them for different reasons.

Tears of joy,

Tears of fear,

Tears of sadness,

Tears of resentment.

When ya think ya have everything planned out, something gets in ur way.
Life can be a joke sometimes.
Things not done in the past leads to sulking now.

Wad more can i do?

SYF today. Well done to everyone. Curtains closed. Claps.

To be continued...

Saturday, May 01, 2010

First of May

When i was small, and christmas trees were tall,
we use to love while others use to play.
Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by,
some one else moved in from far away.

Now we are tall, and christmas trees are small,
and you don't ask the time of day.
But you and I, our love will never die,
but guess we'll cry, come first of may...