Saturday, July 28, 2007
ok..
lets get started...
actually plan to go SAJC with a couple of drama members..
but in the end those who agreed to come didn't come..
so went there alone..
took train at 6.. walked to SAJC bought the ticket at 6:30..
went in the aditorium at 7.. and sat there alone till 7:30..
felt wierd watching the plan alone..
anyway.. its two plays..
Tpjc and Sajc..
Tpjc's play was about a girl who grew up in a single parent family with her sister.. her father left her mum for another women.. so since she was young.. her mum had been telling the siblings that none of the males in th world are good..(not true btw.. :)..) in thew end the mother passed away and the girl found a guy she loves.. but her sister objected and the girl left her sister.. the girl got pregnant before she got married and the guy because of family problems left her.. The girl went back to her house to find her sister dead and went crazy.. but in the end.. she got together with the guy.. lols
Sajc's play is called the thousand cranes.. its a true story.. our school drama club used this play and got sliver 4 years ago.. the play is about an eleven years old japanese girl with a bright future in track and field.. her dream was to represent japan in the olymics.. get married and have lots of kids.. but unfortunalty.. she was diagnosed with lekemia due the the radiation from the atomic bomb dropped in hiroshima in 1945.. then.. she heard about the legend of the thousand cranes.. it said that anyone who folds a thousand paper cranes would be granted a wish... her wish was to stay alive.. so she started folding.. folding.. and folding.. but she didn't have time to complete it.. she died after folding the 644 crane.. her frens den continued the work and completed the thousand cranes..
felt like crying in the end..
yupp.. thats it..
Chris..
btw.. i folded a thousand cranes before.. :)
This is the second post since i became the Big 'L'.. The Biggest Loser..
Dun get me wrong.. Being a loser doesn't mean i've no self esstem..
You noe why im a Loser?..
Cause im.. losing my mind, losing my temper, losing my hope, losing MY REASONS TO BE HAPPY and LOSING YOU..
basically.. im losing everything.. for YOU are my everything..
but im gonna solve this problem very soon..
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and you!
How could u swear in the name of christ when all the evidence was pointing at u so that i could believe you?..
u have dirtied the holy name of jesus..
and people do trust u, u noe?.. and they didn't noe that u have destroyed their trust..
Stop lying for every lie that u create.. u have u create another lie when that lie is exposed...
and this include telling others that ur frens lie.. so stop..
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went for lunch after school..
had a great laugh..
but i think i kinda went overboard..
was very happy.. but after reaching art class... my happiness left..
dun ask me why... i dunno too..
went drama after it ended.. Far King Hell..
DRAMA.. the only hope that could make me happy didn't..
dunno la....
dunno la.. maybe thats the last time im gonna be with u..
kk..
thats all..
maybe the next time i blog..
is the time that everything is lost...
Cya.. The Big 'L"
Saturday, July 21, 2007
This post will start at Thursday morning...
I had a dream... a dream.. that jolted me up.. its not a nightmare.. this dream is a wake up call.. this dream.. is reality.. i found out alot of things through this dream.. and all my positive dreams shattered.. was filled with anger when i reached school.. threw my bag that my chair.. and went out of class.. went to a quiet corner.. and stared at the parade square..fresh air calm my anger and anger's friend sadness came to me.. staring at the parade square give me a clearer view of the world.. den xiao min came.. comforted me.. which actually had only a little effect and continued
staring at the parade square..
saw u.. but u didn't see me...
recess came..
saw u.. but u didn't see me...
went lunch with a group of frens.. den came back school...
saw u.. but u didn't see me...
stared at the parade square..
saw u.. but u didn't see me...
went home..
thursday ended..
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Friday morning.. racial harmony concert..
went to help teacher with the decoration for the fair..
den went art room..
saw u.. but u didn't see me...
den after school went to help hang the decorations for the fair..
saw u.. but u didn't see me...
den after that.. went home to change into home clothing and went plaza sing to watch harry potter with xiao miin, yi heen, linda, shannon, carson, bryan..
it was nice.. but they editted some parts and cut off alot of parts..
went back to hougang for the fair.. went 5th floor for dinner..
saw u.. but u didn't see me...
after dinner went fair.. after that went to play pool for the first time with carson.. den played LAN for the first time in six months..
went home... end of post..
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lets do a little maths..
7 times when i saw u.. but u didn't see me... sadded..
lols?..
hey the big 'L' is written all over my face.. 'L' for loser..
kaes.. bb..
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Yesterday was SYF night...
our performance was alright...
(my last performance was alright...)
our exit was VERY noisy.. with foot steps and hushing sounds..
(my last EXIT was very noisy.. with foot steps and hushing sounds...)
after SYF night.. most of them were celebrating in the bus.. but i wasn't.. went away from the crowd.. no mood to celebrate.. dunno why...
den i opened the school gate for the bus to enter.. and soon everybody left.. gone.. and my last duties of the drama chairman for syf night ended with me locking up the school gate.. accomanied daniel to the buy food and walked home after that..
SYF night has ended... gone........
i hate my dreams nowadays.. in my dreams.. i was with u.. i was so happy.. i was the happiest man alive in my dreams.. i thought my dreams were real...it was so real.. i could almost feel it..
But all dreams came to an end.. and in bed.. i found out its jus dreams.. my dreams can never come true...... never...
everytime i look into ur eyes... i fell more deeply in love with u...
i hate my dreams...
CHRIS..
cya..
Saturday, July 07, 2007
ok.. lets start....
4th june 2007 (wed):
went drama... den the drama pp played roller chairs.. i joined them.. 30 mins later.. the main roles havent arrived yet... so i borrowed dinesh fone to call.. but no none pick up.. ok.. one of them picked up.. said "im on the way".. 30 mins later.."im still on the way".. was damn stress la.. i wasnt angry.. just stress.. but i choose not to say or do anything.. but no matter how hard i tried to fake a smile.. i couldn't... so i spent about 1 hour calling and calling and calling... and giving out commands that no one would listen.. den i told one group to move because thats where the coffin should be.. one of them asked "move where?".. i didn't meant to shout.. but i did.. "MOVE AWAY LA!".. im sorry.. i really didn't meant to do it.. later i took a photo of someone.. which made me laugh.. :D.. after that took photo of drama.. the person that made me laugh is in that group.. guess who ba.. :)
soon the main character arrived.. it appears that his battery was flat.. den the person who was on the way arrived too.. practice starts... it was ok la.. den they were released for a 5 mins break.. but.. something emotional broke out.. someone apologised and cried.. andi, lisa ,nisha, vivienne and i were only one of the few that tried to console her.. but soon.. she told us only lisa, vivienne and i a secret... i really hope she is not lying.. coz if she really did... although many pp dun trust her.. i still have a little trust in her.. after most of them left.. discuss with a small group wad time to report on friday.. went macs for dinner.. on the way met mark lee.. waved at him.. :)
5th july 2007 (thursday):
in the morning got scolded by ms lin.. despite my frns telling me not to say sorry to her.. i said sorry to her during reccess.. before drama.. suddenly felt like being alone.. walked around ouside school.. a group of frens asked me to join them for lunch.. i said dun want.. den went back school.. went 4th storey.. looking at the parade square...
den went drama.. had practice.. den we had a discussion which turns out to be quite nasty.. i just kept quiet.. until it went out of control.. practice ends with everyone with a heavy heart.. but through this.. i believe everybody know more about each other.. went home and my life became evn more complicated.. wun elaborate on that...
6th july 2007 (friday):
performance.. arrived in school at 6:20.. the school is so damn creepy wn its dark.. some pp arrived later.. but the performance was ok to me.. everyone remembered their lines.. only thing is the microphones..
after that got drama.. practice with those without lines... den went play ice and water.. went home after that..
7th july 2007 (saturday)(today):
no drama today... i think going hougang mall later..
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why am i the chairman of drama?.. a guy without leader ship qualities becoming the chairman?.. how could this be possible.. how could u all be so curel to me by choosing me to become the chairman?..
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do u noe everytime i see u sad.. i wanna bear ur pain with u...
the only way for me to stop liking u is when..
u stop smiling.. as when u are smiling.. it makes my day..
u stop talking.. as every word from u melts my heart..
u stop being sad.. because i would wanna protect u..
only when u do all these things will i stop liking u...
chris...
take cares..
Monday, July 02, 2007
hi.. ok... lets start..
29th june:
had english lesson until 2.15.. den ran and collect keys.. den ran open the room.. and ran back to class to hand up homework.. rehearse the play.. den after drama played ice and water.. and pepsi cola.. dun really felt like playing pepsi cola.. lols.. we played till susie chased us off.. lols..
Thats us after playing the games.. lols.. im the photographer.. not in this picture..
went to hougang mall for ice cream.. but dun felt like eating when i reached there.. yupp.. managed to get home before it rains..
30th june..
went drama.. had a wonderful practice with mr beng.. had fun.. went hougang mall with the rest for lunch.. but in the end nobody ate lunch.. went home for lunch.. mum cooked.. :)
1st july..
went doro's house.. to report to work.. reached early.. so used the com.. learned from doro that my cell group disbanded.. i not in city harvest le.. den after that went work.. went clementi.. jurong mall.. and IMM to discribute flyers.. took train to orchard to collect clothes.. i reached there quite early.. so went popular through an unknown staircase.. den went up through an unknown exit.. went to find OCBC.. but dunno where.. im not street wise.. lols.. in the end found it..had a funny meeting with mr beng, daiyan and vivienne.. lols.. too funny to describe.. den took train back to hougang with vivenne.. she left at serangoon.. went home and called the rest about the practice tomoro..
2nd july:
holiday.. but my poor drama members came for practice.. den forgot to bring tze jie's pencil box.. so ran home to take...dun like to break promises u see..wasn't really a session today as those WHO HAVENT BEEN COMING FOR PRACTICES DIDN'T COME.. we talk alot.. did marking.. and talk.. some played catching.. den settled somethings about a club members with the members.. den went KFC for lunch.. had a good time there.. kept on saying jokes and stuffs.. laughing through lunch.. managed to stop nisha from having stupid ideas again..(i think).. hahas.. den good times always came to an end.. we went home...
kaes.. thats it.. drama roxs.....
haiz.. why do i like u even though i noe its impossible for us to be together?.. u are so pretty.. u are so smart... u have a great personality.. and i suck.. but i still like u.. why????.. its changing into love soon..
dun even noe what u think of me...
haiz.. so its best to leave things as it is and stay as frens ba..
once an idiot.. always an idiot..
cya..
Chris..
