Wednesday, August 02, 2006
hey...
im losing my interest in my studies... wad is the use of studying if im dumb???...
my chinese..6/30..maths...1/26... den after the physics test yi heen told edwin...'do u even cared about ur future???'... ia sked him why he asked edwin tat... he said"he was sleeping during the test la..."...yi heen ars... during the physics test... i slept longer den edwin... den history lesson...mr er asked us to do assignment... but i sian la... dun wanna do...spent the entire hour doing nothing... den mr er ask me to meet him at 1:30... but i dun care la... never go meet him... aren't i a bastard???...
had been sleeping more often lately... its not because im tired... im sick of life... i dowan to face reality... i wanna sleep... jus sleep... if onli i can sleep forever...
i noe commiting sucide is not the way out... im not stupid.. i noe how precious life is... i wun commit sucide... onli if... one day i go SNAP... and go mad... maybe i have depression den i will commit sucide... so if i died... im jus mad... but... my blog will live forever... my stories will be here forever... i dowan to be forgotten... HAIZ...
today woke up... went school... ermmm... den chinese period had to change place with cheryl... so put my pencil box on her bag... den edwin disturbed me... den kelvin ask us not to sit on chelyl's chair... den serene said 'christopher... dun put ur pencil box on cheryl's bag...'... i was like huh???... den kelvin said..."cheryl will be angry... do u understand???..."...I DUN UNDERSTAND... jus put on her bag onli ma!!!... my pencil box oso not dirty... but wad made me angry is... i cannot touch her bag... while cherl can dirty my bag... she threw it at the floor... dotz...
after tat walk with xuan yi... he took all my mac points tat i had been saving... left with onli 9 points... haiz...